It's Not The End

Recently I had a small discussion with a friend. I explained how much I wanted to be married. I have been dating a certain boy for a good year and a half now. To me it has seemed like eternity. As soon as I said the words "marry" to my friend, he became almost angry. He responded quickly destroying my happy lovey self and said, "WHY? You have so much of your life to live!" Instantly I was bothered. In a brief few moments mentally I glanced through my wonderful, exciting life. My response wasn't exactly the one I wanted to give at that time, but I responded plainly that it was what I wanted to do. And then went on saying, "Your idea of living is drinking, & partying. To me that's not living." Sure my friend is a man older in years, has different standards, has gone through a painful divorce, and is speaking out in his own regrets, but he is wrong. I wish to respond with my real and heartfelt thoughts. Although he will never come upon this.

Marriage is something so many people despise. They think that it is the end. In ways it is. Dating is ended, flirting is ended, even some social life is ended.To me John is worth ending every one of those things and more! He is everyone and everything I need. He's not only my love, he's my best friend. Sure it's cheese, but it's the truth. If I had had it my way I would have been married a year ago! When I even consider my friends council and if I took it to heart, I would be working, and playing. Where is the meaning? The days go by. Nothing lasts. Friends come and go every. single. day. What is fun about drinking till I pass out? What is fun about doing risky things to get myself hurt or put in jail? What is fun about having tons of relations with multiple boys? You call THAT living? I call it immobilizing.
So to you my good friend I say to you that you are WRONG. I can't WAIT to be married,to continue my life long journey, to nourish my marriage, and to make it the most FUN thing that has ever happened to me. To me, I am living MORE for making the decision of moving forward with my life. This to me is living my life to it's fullest.